God's love and grace...

There it was...again.  For the one millionth time.  That same, horrible, sinking, makeyouwanttothrowup feeling that overwhelmed me.  I had failed...again.  And then again, came those words, You are such a terrible person. Who could ever stand to be around you? You are such a screw up all the time. You don't deserve anything good at all...  However, this time when I heard those words was different than when I had heard them in the past.  This was because the truth of God's Word had penetrated down to the dry places of my soul and spirit and refreshed me...and because God had been using the Holy Spirit to teach and train me in the art of spiritual warfare...so I knew what to do.

"There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus!" I retorted. (Romans 8:1) You still aren't good enough.  "I don't have to be, because 'greater is He who is in me than he who is in this world'!" I snapped back. (1 John 4:4) You aren't strong enough, you can't do this came the next grand lie.  "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength," I answered. (Philippians 4:13)  And the lies stopped. As well as the feeling.  Jesus and the Holy Spirit had "restored me to the joy of their salvation and upheld me with a willing spirit". (Psalm 51:12).  Will I trip and fall again? Yes. Will the enemy try to make me feel lousy again? Yes. But I do know the One Who is greater than all of this...and He knows You.

"For You did form my inward parts; You did knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I will confess and praise You for You are fearful and wonderful and for the awful wonder of my birth! Wonderful are Your works, and that my inner self knows right well.

My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them.

How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!

If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand. When I awoke, I would still be with You." ~Psalm 139:13-18

Think about that...the One Who created the world also created you and knows you intimately...and even though you may mess up, He still loves you and has insurmountable grace for you. 

"For it is by free grace that you are saved through faith. And this is not of yourselves, but it is the gift of God; Not because of works, lest any man should boast." ~Ephesians 2:8-9

He has saved me, heals and restores me daily...He can do the same for you.

In Christ,

Meg