Life is absolutely, totally a precious gift from God, one that should not be taken for granted, one that should be appreciated, cherished and lived to the fullest for His glory...but sometimes it sucks.
There are times, days, weeks...even years where you sit and think to yourself, Really?! I just don't understand. Well that's me right now.
My heart is breaking, my heart is hurting....bearing this unbelieveable pain for my friends...and for others...that I am finding almost unbearable. Jesus really is all I have right now...well, He's all we ever have, actually.
So as I sit here and weep yet again for the umpteenth time this week...I have just decided to let it out. Let it go...let the tears flow and feel the pain and walk into it. And pray more than ever. I don't know what tomorrow holds, but I do know Who holds tomorrow. I have to trust and believe that when I feel empty and when I feel that my heart is being crushed, there is a reason for it...because any time that has happened in the past, the Lord has used it for His glory. I am sure He will do the same here.
Pain is not a fun thing, but I heard something on the radio that I thought was kind-of a cool thought:
"God won't protect you from something He could perfect you through."
Man it hurts. The fire isn't fun. The pain isn't fun. But...you grow. And He changes you more and more into His likeness.
Even though I feel like I am in the middle of a hurricane, I know He will take care of me. No matter what happens, no matter what direction things go. As Job says,
"For He knows the way that I take, and after He has tried me I shall come forth as refined gold, pure and luminous." ~Job 23:10.
After all, His ways are not our ways, and He has reasons far above and beyond those we can see for purposes we may never know. So one day at a time, we walk forward, into the unknown, with only Christ as our light.
In Christ,
Meg
