Friday, August 31, 2012

The Heart of the Matter...

I am going to be totally honest.  My heart is somewhere else.  Physically still inside me...but somewhere else feeling wise.  A huge piece of it is in Canada...a piece of it that I will never, ever get back, and quite honestly am totally ok with missing.  Another piece of it is somewhere I have never been before.  But will hopefully be going by the grace of God. 

You see, Jesus wrecked me this year in Canada.  And I want the whole wide world to know it.  Because it was the best thing that ever happened to me.  Things that used to seem so darn important to me are slowly losing their appeal.  They lack the luster they used to possess.  I'm more than ok with that.  Because I don't want ordinary. I want extraordinary.  (God showed me awhile ago that He has called me to live this kind of life).  I don't want safe.  I want to be scared - in a good way - trusting God for everything. I don't want comfortable, because comfortable is far too easy, and life is way too short for that.  I also don't want easy, because if things are easy then that means Jesus doesn't have to show up, and I want for nothing more than Him to show up all the time in everything I do.  I have no strength but in Him alone.  He gets all the glory in everything.  Plus, He knows I like challenges...He is giving me a pretty big one right now.  Any changes will require me to completely lean on Him all the way...  it will be the only way anything can happen because I can't do it in my own strength.

The coming year will be quite the adventure - I can already tell that.  I'm looking forward to it - seeing where the Lord leads me.  I know that the He will go before me, walk beside me and come up behind me.  That in and of itself gives me more peace than you can imagine.  Yes, I am scared, but come what may, I will "do it afraid".  Because that's the only way to live.

Yes, I changed the title of my blog as well as the picture.  Because this scripture is more true than I can describe.  My treasures are not things, but the amazing, beautiful people God has placed before me.  They are gifts.  I pray that I will not take them for granted!!

"But seek His kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.  Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will never fail, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." ~Luke 12:31-34 

In Christ,
Meg