Free!

The Lord released me.  It only took about 2 weeks, and he released me.  He apparently did the work He needed to do in my heart in regards to the make-up thing, and He said to me on Monday, You can do what you want...if you want to wear it, I give you permission to...  Interestingly enough, I haven't worn it all week.  I just have gotten used to myself without it and am fine with not wearing it.  I've become comfortable in my own skin.  I think this needed to happen.  Heart changes are a good thing...especially if it brings our creator more glory!!! 

So what I will do for the rest of Lent remains to be determined...more than likely I still will not wear make-up 90% of the time so the Lord can continue to work on my heart...I continue to be excited for the journey......

In Christ,

Meg

Shock of the day.....

Something amazing happened today.  I finally came to the realization that I am not ugly without make up.  I am not saying this in a conceited way.  I'm not saying I'm the most beautiful girl in the world, because I honestly don't think that.  I'm just average.  But I was just surprised that I felt this way.  I had this strange feeling it would take the Lord almost the whole time of Lent to get me past this idea that without make-up, I am ugly.  So the fact that I felt that maybe I'm not ugly without it after only a week was rather surprising. 

A few years ago, every time I would look in the mirror, I would hear You are beautiful. or You are stunning.  I kind-of began to freak out.  Was this ME thinking this?! If that was me thinking that I don't want to think things like that!!  How conceited is that?!?  I didn't want to have some strange sense of security and act all pompous about something that is totally stupid.  I started asking the Lord about it, and that's when He showed me that it was Him saying that to me.  He was telling me what He thinks of me.  I just didn't believe it. 

Stripping myself of that false sense of security has actually been good for me so far.  It has made me get my security from Him.  Not from outward things. 

I probably will never see exactly what He sees in me, but that's ok.  I'm completely content with things right now.  More so than I ever thought I could be. 

In Christ,

Meg

 

Which Path??

As long as I live, I think there will always be one thing I never understand.  I will never understand how you can have such an amazing day, feeling full of the love of Jesus, walking in the power of the Holy Spirit, excited for what the Lord has for you, worship and praise Him at church...and then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, you want to hide.  You want everyone to leave you alone.  You want to move to the middle of nowhere Vermont and become a hermit.  I will never understand how this can happen so quickly.  Of all the things that Jesus has helped me overcome, this is one thing that I still struggle with.  I don't know what it is.  Maybe it's because I plain and simply do not like a lack of peace.  Maybe it's because I don't like dischord.  Or a lack of harmony.  All I know is, it somehow still seems to happen with me far more often than I would like.  It's that moment...that moment that I have to decide...do I bow down to the feelings and let them overtake me, or do I turn away, rejecting those things that I KNOW are not from the Lord and focus again on Him and let His joy fill me?  The only other thing I know is that it is my choice what I decide to do.  The Lord puts the choice before me, and from that point on, it's my choice. 

We can choose to love or to hate.  We can choose to forgive or hold a grudge.  We can choose to bow down to every feeling that comes our way, or we can choose to resist those feelings we know are not from God.  But it is ultimately our choice.  Our parents can't make us decide, friends can't, and the Lord Himself does not make us decide.  It's up to us.  Which path will you take?

I think I know what I'll choose.

In Christ,

Meg