Faithfulness

This is where the rubber meets the road.  Where things get messy.  This is where you have to dig in deep, put on that armour and cling to Jesus and trust His way.  This is where you have to believe that He knows what is best, that He has a plan, and that His refining fire is just making your character sharper.  This is where He REALLY purifies your heart and tests you to see, Does she REALLY believe My promises?

"Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; And see if there be any hurtful way in me, And lead me in the everlasing way." ~Psalm 139:23-24.

The Lord is faithful and He will not leave or forsake me.  I have seen His faithfulness again and again. 

We were made to praise Him...to worship Him...in all His glory in good and bad, in happy and sad...regardless of whether we are joyful or angry. 

"I will give You thanks with all my heart;
I will sing praises to You before the gods.
I will bow down toward Your holy temple
And give thanks to Your name for Your lovingkindness and Your truth;
For You have magnified Your word according to all Your name.
On the day I called, You answered me;
You made me bold with strength in my soul.

ll the kings of the earth will give thanks to You, O Lord,
When they have heard the words of Your mouth.

And they will sing of the ways of the Lord,
For great is the glory of the Lord.
For though the Lord is exalted,
Yet He regards the lowly,
But the haughty He knows from afar.

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me;
You will stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies,
And Your right hand will save me.
The Lord will accomplish what concerns me;
Your lovingkindness, O Lord, is everlasting;
Do not forsake the works of Your hands." ~Psalm 138

 

Thank You, My Jesus.  For everything.

 

 Love,

Meg

Thoughts on a Wedding

I used to have this idea in my mind as to what a wedding should be like.

Then I got all "wedding-ed out".  And my thoughts have changed... (and these are just my thoughts...my opinions....)

It's all about Christ. Not about the people getting married. After all, He brought you together, so it should be about Him.

1 Corinthians 13 is considered the typical wedding verse...I think 2 Thessalonians 3:3... or Philippians 2: 1-4...or Colossians 3:12-17...are far better...

Boquet and garter toss? No. Thank. You.

Can everyone please not look at me for too long, as I really do not want to be the center of attention.

The train on the wedding dress must go...or I'm gonna trip...but maybe I can endure it for the ceremony...

No dance, please.  No speeches either, please.  And for sure, NO WEDDING SHOWERS!!!!!!

Just simple, quiet, beautiful yet humble...focused on Jesus....that sounds great....

Or...

we could ELOPE...

In Christ,

Meg

 

'sigh'

The last couple of days have been rather rough...as I have gone back into the refiner's fire yet again.  I am noticing that some things I thought the Lord and I have conqured seem to be resurfacing.  Probably the biggest one is getting REALLY hurt by people really easily.  This was a major issue for me for a long long time, and after Jesus healed me from my dad's accident, I did not have much of a problem with this anymore.  But yeah, lately? It's been a problem.

I also have felt persecuted at times by some coworkers and also like a big, fat screw-up.  Both of these things have made me feel like I want to "hide". 

It is times like these though that once I am able to finally step back, take a break and look at things from God's perspective I see things more clearly. 

People are not out to get me.  Many of the times things happen because people themselves operate out of their own pain.  And on top of that, people have their own things they are dealing with, just as I have my own things I am dealing with. 

Speaking of persecution, Paul faced far greater persecution than I am, and he somehow managed to maintain his joy.  I am a major spiritual wimp at times.  Jesus help me.  And Jesus, help me to love others more deeply and see them how you do.

I just don't like it when I see things like this in myself.  I wish that really I could just always be joyful and rejoice always as scripture says.  How wimpy am I if I can't do that? 

I'm sorry for the downer post.  My heart is just down today.  I know it probably always seems I write when I'm sad....it's probably because that's how I process.  Not that I get sad very often, I really don't.  But this is just the reality of where I'm at today.  I'll try to be more positive, soon.

I guess I could leave with this positive side of things - the kids I work with that always fill my heart with joy...my little "Wiggles and Giggles" ....I love these two as if they were my own kids.  And I think they love me too.  I sorta wish we could all be like a combination of the two of them....so innocently sweet.  Alas, life is not this way.  But they make me smile each day.  I bump my knee on the table, say "ow!" and Wiggles asks, "You ok?"  They always want me to play Uno with them, and Giggles likes to drag me along if he's going somewhere unfamiliar.  So even in the rain, there's always a rainbow.

In Christ,

Meg